The Only Queen I bow down to

I talk about her less often to people, but more often to myself every single day. 

I had a mother, and today is the day she was born.

I'm borrowing this picture from beautifulandhappy.com because i think it's a picture that fits appropriate to the love a mother can give. 

God, I love her. I'm not a momma's girl nor am I a daddy's girl-- I'm my mother's daughter.

She's a workaholic. Me and my siblings grew up alone and independent, I felt hate about the loneliness my parents laid on me and my siblings on an early age--which I dealt with by waiting for them to get home till midnight at age 10. Nagging them in a cute way to read me some of my school notes and teach me like those kids on tv and their parents do. 

I learned about my dad being away everytime but we were all closer to him than we were to her when we were younger. 

So everytime I waited for her to get home from work, I think everytime I learned from my brother who just came back from her office that she wasn't coming, the hate inside me for her was brewing.

But like I said, I dealt with the daughter-to-her-mother misunderstanding early--too erly--for me to even think of rebelling. We were good kids I guess. For an astoundingly excellent Mother like her.

I think she was born to be a Mother. 

to her siblings, 

to her friends,

to her self,

and lastly, to us, her offspring,

whom she once claimed when she was alive,

are the only real gold she's found in life. 

I love you momma. 

And happy Birthday.

I cant pick any other mother like you. If I'm good with old people and I'm nicer to Mothers than I am to people my age, It's because I can still feel you. Everytime I see a woman wearing a bandana around her head like a warrior, I still think it's you.

Everytime I walk by your office I still watch your office windows and think we're in there watching you work and clean your desk, create this territorial but homey feeling against a blank white lonely government office. 

Till this day I cant bear listening to that song "You Needed Me". It's a beautiful and honest song. Fit for her, The only Queen I bow down to.